How long can I endure this torment? Why do I keep on staying though you just put my heart onto grief? What am I to you, really? Who are you to make me feel this way? When are you coming back? Where is my place in your heart? Do I even have one? And if you can’t answer those, just spare me this question…. do you really love me?

My mind’s filled with tormenting queries. Feels like I’m never gonna stop getting hurt. When are you going to give me answers? Will you ever give me those?

I’m pleading for it.. seriously. I’ve never been this hurt.. I’ve never been this patient. Just give me the answers. If you push me away, I’ll make it easy for you.. if you want me to stay, there’s no need for you to beg for it. That’s how much I love you.

One of the biggest detriments of loving too much is losing the quintessence of our real self. Our principles were burned up and worse, we become negativelyaltruistic.

(Source: unluckylass)

Happy Valentine‘s Day. Bitters gonna hate.

Don‘t mind Love Problems, I am blessed and happy.

Lovelife isn‘t the only aspect in life. There are family, friends, money and God to turn up to. So what if you‘re love life sucks? You shouldn‘t be bothered much about it coz it would just make you feel worse and unhappy.

You’ll get used with the pain.

After all the miseries, the grief and the depressing events in your life, there will come to a point that you’ll get immuned with the pain. One day, you’re just going to say, “It’s nothing now.” Unlike before, you’ll become stronger.. stronger enough to get rid of the tears. Someday, you’ll realize how ridiculous it is to be crying over a stupid thing that just did nothing but to hurt you. One day, the wound would pass. Everything will be okay. You’ll just laugh about the things from the past. The least thing you know, you’re perfectly fine and happy :)

I used to to think that we’re for forever.

We were madly inlove. Everything seems to be perfect. We were unexplainably happy. We were together through the good times and the bad. We promised not to leave one another. We used to see our future together..

But sad to say, it was all gone. Our pretty bubbles started popping one by one, our hopes turned to disappointment, our promises… broken. 

It kills me. Grief seemed to be hard to deal with. Acceptance is way too unreachable. I can’t stand up, my legs are weak. Every night, I cry, not hoping to forget about you  but  wishing that you’ll come back instead. Listening to love songs which remembers me of “us”. Seeing places we’ve been. Staring at the stars, that reminds me of our plans. Hugging myself to feel the warmth of your embrace. 

Please come back.  I still want you.. I still love you. :(

Paghihintay.

Ito yung isa sa pinakamahirap gawin sa mundo pero ginagawa pa din dahil may love na nag-eexist. Naghihintay tayo hindi lang dahil kailangan kundi dahil gusto natin yung kalalabasan ng paghihintay. 

Pero minsan, naghihintay tayo dahil sa katangahan. Yung tipong kahit wala ka ng hihintayin, go ka pa din dahil hoping ka na walang imposible. Patience is a virtue yes, pero it sometimes leads to disappointment. And in the end, you’d be in grief. Masasaktan ka dahil nabalewala yung paghihintay mo. Nasasaktan ka dahil wala ka naman palang hinihintay pero iyon ka pa din at parang gagong naghintay. 

Hindi din naman natin maitatanggi yung masarap na pakiramdam kapag alam nating may naghihintay saatin. Isa kasi ito sa basehan lalo na saming mga babae, kung talagang sincere ang isang tao. NAGHIHINTAY SIYA. Effort kasi yun eh. Yun na kadalasan yung nagiging standard namng mga babae especially kapag may nanliligaw. Kung sino yung mas patient at ma-effort, yun yung sincere at deserving saaming precious YES.

Pero minsan, may mga taong nagtatake advantage. Hindi porket hinihintay ka nung tao, lulubus-lubusin mo na. Kung talagang wala siyang hihintayin, bakit hindi pa sabihin ng maaga? Wag na wag mong idahilan na baka masaktan siya. Kasi afterall, wala din naman siyang mapapala sa huli at ganun din. Masasaktan at masasaktan pa din siya. Mas malala pa nga dahil pinatagal eh. Kung mas maaga, hindi pa ganun kalaki yung magiging damage. Pero kung sa tingin mo naman, may mahihintay, wag mo na patagalin. Minsan kasi may mga taong napapagod din maghintay kahit gaano ka pa nila kamahal. May mga taong sumusuko dahil nahihirapan na sila. Kaya wag ka na kasi magpaimportante. 

Para saakin, isa sa pinakamagandang qualities ng isang tao ang marunong maghintay. Yung hindi minamadali ang mga bagay-bagay. Kasi sabi nga, kung ano yung hinintay mo ng matagal, masarap yun sa pakiramdam kapag nakuha mo na.

You’re not even mine, but for some reason I’m still jealous.